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Special Needs Parents: How to Cope with Grief

Special Needs Parents: How to Cope with Grief

Special Needs Parents: How to cope with grief

September 24th, 2012
By Karen Wang

Three times in the past two weeks I’ve been asked, “How do you remain so strong?  How do you cope day-to-day?”

The Process of Grieving

That’s a big question for many parents of children with disabilities or medical needs.

The famous “five stages of grief” aren’t necessarily predictable when a parent is dealing with a child’s loss of health or developmental skills.

The denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance may be a whirlwind; one or more stages may pop up unexpectedly when a child misses a milestone (I was hit hard when my 3 year old began to surpass his 9 year old brother in many developmental areas); or the parent may find a completely different way of coping and problem solving.

The Right Way to Grieve

There is no such thing as a “correct” way to grieve.  At one end of the spectrum, a parent may suffer symptoms of Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder, especially after witnessing a child’s medical procedures or life-altering events.

At the other end of the spectrum, some parents report no feelings of grief or loss, and take a pragmatic approach to supporting their children’s needs.  According to Laura Marshak and Fran Prezant, co- authors of Married With Special Needs Children, these are all healthy, natural reactions.

 

My Losses

When I realized that my son was developmentally delayed and would not have a typical childhood, I felt a sense of loss on many levels.

First there was the loss of my own expectations for my son.  I also walked away from my teaching career and my incomplete doctoral dissertation to care for my son full-time.

I lost my health, partly due to the stress of being a caregiver, with frequent infections, chronic thyroid problems and even cancer.

I lost many of my friendships, professional relationships and family relationships because I was physically and emotionally unavailable to everyone except my son.

Feeding and calming my son required 100% of my energy around the clock, and he did not accept alternate caregivers. I packed up and moved to Planet Autism.

Emotional Memory

Ten years later, I still feel sadness or sorrow from time to time.  Both of my children were screamers when they were little; so when I see relaxed, happy, social babies and toddlers, I am reminded of what I missed.

“But you have two beautiful children,” a friend told me when I confided this to her.  I do enjoy  and cherish my children – even at their fussiest!  But I also remember the stress of not being able to comfort my baby, and knowing that the intense, long periods of screaming were a symptom of a larger, lifelong issue.

Emotional memories such as these can be triggered at any time by a reminder of an emotional event.

OK, so grief and sorrow are normal for parents of children with special needs.  The question is:

What am I going to do with my grief?

1. The Calm Mom

 I’ve found that the same methods that alleviate my son’s panic attacks also help me deal with everyday stress.

In her book Becoming A Calm Mom, author Deborah Ledley recommends tools for developing a calmer lifestyle based on the principles of cognitive-behavioral therapy.  She starts with identifying the negative thoughts and behaviors that a person wishes to change.

It is necessary to allow enough time to make big and small decisions, since those are a major source of stress for parents.  Time is also needed to strengthen communication and relationship skills, because honesty and reciprocity are the fast track to becoming calmer.

When these new habits are in place, breathing exercises, positive visualization, muscle relaxation and other relaxation strategies provide physical and emotional calmness.

2. Spirituality

On many days I think that the only two things going for me are my maternal instinct and my faith in a higher power.  Each day begins and ends with prayer.  During the day, I consciously try to offer every breath of my body as a prayer.

My autistic son has been my spiritual teacher since the day he was born.  Because of him, I feel the connectedness of life more fully, and my perceptions of the world are heightened – colors are brighter, emotions are stronger, moments seem frozen in their sweetness and fragility.  I carry those moments of awareness with me during my darkest hours.

3. Volunteer Work

Sometimes it helps to remove the focus from my family’s needs and to do something to help others. I’ve been doing various types of community volunteer work with my kids since they were babies.

I once taught an adult education class while wearing my infant son in a sling.  When my son was a toddler, we assisted with worship services at a nursing home.  I always have my younger son with me when I volunteer at his older brother’s school.

Last summer we ran a lemonade stand at a community garage sale and donated all of the proceeds from the lemonade stand to a community group.  If I can’t find a volunteer opportunity where my kids are welcome, I create an opportunity!

4. Research And Advocacy For My Child

I may as well come out and admit it: in my heart, I’m still an Ivy League academic.  I dive right into the medical research databases, and I know what baloney smells like.

I am able to discuss my son’s education and therapy with intelligence and clarity, and I am able to exchange helpful ideas with his team.  I am able to implement the results of my research at home, and I’ve seen my son benefit from my efforts.  That’s empowerment all around.

5. Learning To Enjoy My New Normal

I could complain for a really long time about the 10 years of sleep deprivation torture that I’ve endured.  But complaining doesn’t change it.

Instead I choose to reflect on what those long nights have revealed to me: the hours spent cuddling a wide-awake child on the sofa in the dark; the long walks at the crack of dawn; knowing that I don’t regret my losses, because in return I gained something that I had never imagined.

6. Keys To The Universe

I recently discovered The Autism Mom’s Survival Guide by Susan Senator, an outstanding book about everyday coping.

The author emphasizes the importance of self-care for all caregivers.  She interviewed parents in the autism community and drew from her personal experience to produce a list of suggestions for dealing with stress, which she calls “The Keys to the Universe: Small Pleasures That Make A Big Difference.”

Some of the items on the list include:

  • Taking just a few minutes to spend on a hobby
  • Meeting a friend for dinner or coffee
  • Making the beauty of nature part of the day (even if that means just buying flowers at the grocery store)
  • Listening to music
  • Visiting a website that helps you with your overall life philosophy
  • Stimulating your intellect
  • Challenging yourself physically
  • Indulging in a small treat.

Grief, sorrow and all types of intense emotion can change anyone, for better or for worse.  I know that I am a different person now.  But maybe this is the person I was supposed to be all along.

 About the author:

Karen Wang is a Friendship Circle parent. You may have seen her sneaking into the volunteer lounge for ice cream or being pushed into the cheese pit by laughing children. She is a contributing author to the anthology “My Baby Rides the Short Bus: The Unabashedly Human Experience of Raising Kids With Disabilities”

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One Response to “Special Needs Parents: How to Cope with Grief”

  1. Miriam says:

    Really great points! When I was a teen a friend told me, “When you have nothing left, find someone to serve.” Sometimes I can’t leave my house to help someone, but God always puts people in our life that we can reach out to…on the phone, on the internet, in a checkout line…always.